Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Matthew 6:34

There is a time for everything. and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refine, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

In God's timing everything is perfect. This is something I have to remind myself when I am hurting.

Today Audrey and Erik came over and we bundled the boys up and went for a walk. It was cold, but nice to get that crisp fresh air. After the walk the boys played. It is so much fun to see how much they change and how different they are. They both are standing and crawling. It is cute to see what toys they are interested in and what they do with those toys. I swear Ry can have three toys in his hands and still want the one Erik has. Today Ryan was seriously copying almost everything Erik was doing. If Erik was standing than Ry would stand if Erik was playing with the basket than Ryan would play with the basket. I am thankful that the boys have each other. Although right now they hit, take each others toys and food from one another (well mostly Ryan is the bruiser) I cannot wait to watch them grow up together. Here are some pictures from our day!

Bath time with Daddy ended with a splash!!!!

The pictures say it all!!! Yes that is Pee

Today is Rexer and I 10 year anniversary. On this day 10 years ago he asked me out on the back of his wrestling picture in math class. I waited until lunch to say yes. That seems like a life time ago. This day is really important to us because really it was the beginning of our relationship. Today we were chatting just about our lives, things we have done, things we would like to do and it seems like life just goes by so quickly. Here are some pictures of the product of our love.

The good,bad and ugly

I have realized that live is full of good, bad and ugly. The only thing in my life that is really ugly is the fact that I have changed two poopy diapers and it is not even 4:00 yet. The bad is that my little boy is becoming so independent, I cherish those moments that he wants to be held or snuggled. Most of the time I am a climbing tool or a vessel to get him from one place to another. The good, well the good is really awesome; I am a Mother. As most of you know at one point I was not sure that I would be able to have children. I look at Ry and I cannot remember those days, he was worth the wait all of the heartache and throwing up for 6 months. I hung out with a girlfriend who is 1 week overdue today, she is so excited to meet her little guy. We had a wonderful afternoon filled with laughter and tears. It gave me perspective I remember the feelings right before you are about to meet your little one and than the instant love you feel when they are here. Motherhood is full of ups, downs twist and turns and if you have read my blog you have seen some of my struggles in the last couple of weeks. But to see the joy and excitement of a new mother is amazing. It is infectious and reminds me of all the the little things that are so amazing about life.

Ryan Matthew

Well our little guy is officially mobile. He moves around this house like he owns the place. He can now get up the stairs from the living room to the kitchen with no problem, and boy let me tell you he can move. Thank God for child locks, because he is into every draw and cupboard in the kitchen. He found the drawer that has all of his bottles, sipy cups and plates in it. Today he proceeded to take all of the items out he does the same thing with his book shelf in his room. Although it makes a mess he seems to be so proud of himself when he his done and he gets so excited while he is doing it-it is totally worth the mess. He is constantly discovering new things in the house, it is fun to watch him and see what he is going to play with or get into. Today he stood by himself unassisted again. He is getting more and more confident in his legs everyday. Last night we went out to dinner, he loves to look around and he always makes sure that every eye is on him. One of my favorite things he does right now is when someone walks around the corner out of his sight, he will stretch his head out or try to look around the corner to find you. Also you can say where is momma or daddy and he will look at us. He is growing more and more independent, I love his stubborn yet sweet personality.

Four front teeth

This is a terrible picture, so I apologize but look at those teeth. They are huge! Double click on the picture and you can see the teeth better.

Lazy Sunday

I love days like today, days when you do nothing all day but whatever you want to do. We all slept in today until 10, yes I am serous. Even the little guy slept until 10. He started to fuss at 7 and Rex went in and gave him a bottle than he was out until 10. It was wonderful for all of us to get that extra sleep. We ended up going to a later church service which was nice. Rexer is on a 4-day so I am hoping we can get some things done around the house. Ryan's top 4 teeth are really showing, he is going to look so different when they are all the way through. They seem to be big teeth like I have, I am sure that they will continue to change.

Orcutt family party

Well today was the annual Orcutt family party. This was the first year that we were the hosts. I decided to have salmon and a seafood theme. Thank you Audrey and Todd for the fish. It was a blast, it is really nice to have family in our new home. We had a few mishaps well only one major one-no propane in the BBQ. So we baked the salmon. I however did not get to eat, I do not like seafood and my steak was going to be cooked on the BBQ. But over all it was a nice day. Ryan is sleeping already. He was a little cutie-pie with all of the family. He definitely looks like an Orcutt. All the men are tall and slender. He was in full form because naturally most of the day we just watched him and entertained him. Ryan has always been a loud baby, but I feel like today he really hit some high notes. He was as loud or louder than the crowd most of the day. Only about half of the Orcutt clan were here which was about 20 people. We definitely missed the rest of you. Ryan tried salmon, he really seemed to like it after the first few bites. Ryan also tried just about everything on the dessert table, not by my choice it was pretty cute to watch him. I have learned that I have to let that one go, we really try to feed Ryan healthy food but it is amazing how many people want to give your child sugar (What is with that???). It is fun to know that Ryan will carry on the family name. I was cooking most of the time so I do not have any pictures-bummer.

Five favorite things Friday!

Okay, I should totally be cleaning my toilets to get ready for the Orcutt Christmas party we are having here tomorrow but I am not. I wanted to share my five favorite things from today-Friday. I am obviously thankful for so much more, but these are my top for today.

1. The smell of my husband, sounds weird I know but I miss his smell when he is on shift. Those of you that really know me know that I am big on smells, good and bad I always relate them to something. Ryan and I went and saw him tonight at work. When I gave him a hug and a kiss good-bye I noticed his smell, cannot even explain it. He smells like bunker gear and fires. I truly miss it when he is not here. One of my favorite things is to get in bed and roll over to his side and I can still smell him. It makes me feel safe and loved.
2. My Grandpa Ralph. Tonight we went on a date and had a wonderful time.
3. My mom, tonight when I dropped Grandpa off I walked in the door and Ryan was sleeping in her arms. I love that she knows him so well that when she takes him I do not need to leave a to-do list.
4. Costco-Need I say more.
5. Ryan's little glow-seahorse, he loves it he has been sleeping through the night sense we introduced it to bedtime.

Why the fight????

I often wonder if people who work in customer service really understand the concept of customer service. For over a week I have been trying to resolve an issue with our mortgage company. WE have automatic payment on our mortgage and well basically they took out an extra payment. Really, it is crazy to me that it is their mistake but I am the one suffering. The thing that totally baffles me is that I have been told like 10 different things. I just want an honest answer and people to do what they say they will do. Is that too much to ask for????
Okay, I am done complaining. Today Ryan ate a frozen waffle. his teeth are really hurting him. So a long time ago I saw on a tv show the dad gave the teething kiddo a frozen waffle so I decided to try it. He loved it, it made him happy for a while. Hey I will try just about anything, the poor guy I just do not want him to hurt.

Front Teeth

Ry has his two front teeth, I know it is so crazy. That explains all the grumpy days we have had lately. So if you are counting that is 4 on top and 2 on the bottom. Tonight my mom and grandpa came over for dinner, well they brought dinner with them. Ryan was in full form, he was using his dump truck to walk, he is getting so good and fast. I love middle of the week surprises like dinner with the family. We saw Audrey and Erik for a bit, the boys are becoming more independent each day. Today they were taking each others toys and out of all of the toys they were playing with the most simple toys. I was talking with Audrey today ans she said something to me that really stuck with me. As moms it is always easier to talk about the good things going on with our children. So true in all areas of each of our lives. Like I was saying to her I have had a "hard" last couple of weeks. It is a combo of several things, I use my blog as an outlet/journal so it is full of the ups and downs of motherhood and being a stay at home mom. I hope you all know that this is an honest, vulnerable look into our lives. I usually type exactly what I am feeling or thinking.

Why the songs??

Each one of the songs put on our blog represent something to our family. It might be a song we wanted to hear or it might have deeper meaning to us. Life is full of ups, downs and unexpected turns. I pray every night I am the wife, mother and woman that God has intended me to be. I pray that knowing that throughout my day without God's grace I would not survive. This time two years ago was when I was dealing with all of my fertility issues. It truly was one of the most trying times in my life. I am reminded today that God's timing is perfect and that he has a plan for my life. I type all of this as my little precious boy sleeps down the hall. Ryan is a gift. He is my Samuel.

Rainy day!

Today there is record floods and rain in our area. The entire city of Orting was evacuated and the major high-way is closed. Rexer was going to be home on a Kelly day(a mandatory day off), but he went back for overtime this morning at about 5am. We will not see him until tomorrow sometime. That is a very odd thing to me still that he will be gone for 24, 36 and even sometimes 48 hours at a time. Ryan and I have a good time. We take lots of pictures and try to keep things fun and interesting. I always appreciate all the phone calls and texts from everyone, it is nice to talk to adults. Today I met Julie and Johanna for lunch. Ry had a blast at the Gonzales household. It was nice to try to relax this morning without little man, but it seemed like if it would go wrong well today it did. The good thing is that we are home now safe and dry.

Date Night

Tonight was date night for Rex and I. Well as of yesterday it became date night out of convince. I had Julie's keys-which were accidentally left in my purse and I needed a babysitter for tomorrow. So tonight is date night. The funny thing is that we did not go out to dinner or go to the movies, we went and test drove trucks, yes I am serous! It was more my idea than Rexers. It just seemed like a perfect time to go without a little kiddo with a carseat. Rex had mentioned it a while ago and this was the first chance we have gotten to test drive trucks. Also when we came home we got in our pjs and checked our blog and than looked at pictures from when Ryan was born. Jamie got amazing pictures that captured the entire birth experience. I love to look back at those pictures, they are a beautiful reminder of Ryan's birth. So we sat and cried and talked about our little boy and how big he is getting. Usually the rule is on date night that we do not talk about Ry, well we blew it this time. It is amazing how a little break can make you realize how much you love your little one. So Uncle Leroy and Auntie Julie thank you for all the help. It will be nice to just relax with my hubby, but the deal is next time you have to take Bunker too!!!

I have said this several times before on my blog, but one of my favorite things to do is watch Ryan sleep. There is a special peace that comes over me when I see my little boy sleeping. Sometimes I forget that he is mine and a product of me, until I watch him sleep. Tonight I went in to his room to watch him sleep and he was sleeping with his butt up in the air. I use to sleep like that when I was a little girl. He has his butt up in the air and his arm around his little glow seahorse. The seahorse is a new addition to bedtime. We are hoping that he will comfort him in the middle of the night. It seems to be working so far.

Boot camp success

I am proud to say that boot camp has been a success, well at least for the last two nights. Rex and I have slept all night. Ryan is sleeping in to about 8, which is so nice. Yesterday we went up to the Gonzales house. It snowed most the afternoon, it was so beautiful. By the time we left there was about 3 inches of snow. It made for a long drive home, but at least was really pretty. I am starting to feel better, it is amazing how good you feel after a good night sleep. Rexer is on a 24 so I am hoping that tonight goes well also.
Ryan ate an apple yesterday, Elisha was eating one and she gave him a bite. He held on to that apple so tight. He was pretty much just gumming, but he held the entire thing in his hands-too cute.

Baby boot camp night 3

The Last couple of weeks Ryan has been waking up in the early morning and wanting to get up. We are unsure of what exactly is going on, but are pretty sure that it is a combo of teething and learning how to stand in his crib. I believe that Ryan has acquired one of my not so nice qualities. He is very stubborn. Well it is a good thing sometimes, but when it comes to him sleeping not such a good thing. This is the not so glamors side of parenting. Two nights ago Ryan was up from 1:44am-3:30am. I know most of you are saying just let him cry it out, believe me we have tried everything. Poor Rexer was sitting on the edge of the bed falling asleep listening to Ryan crying. The problem is that he stands in his crib and he is unsure how to sit down. He gets stuck in that position. The lack of sleep and not feeling so well have really taken a toll on me. I am thankful that Rexer has been home and on nighttime duty. I have been able to get more sleep. It is amazing to me how something so little can have such big lungs. I try really hard to be so thankful for every moment I have with my little guy, but lack of sleep does funny things to Mamma's and babies.

Rexer called and talked to Ryan, these pictures are his reaction when he heard his voice Ry also said Dadda when he heard his voice. Told you he is a total Daddy's boy!